Will left at 4:45 in the morning. I hardly slept last night. Of course, I was deep asleep when he kissed me goodbye and told me how much he loved me. I was groggy and didn't say everything I wanted to. It's silly, because he's still in the US for a bit, and we can talk, text, and Facetime when he's available to do so, but it still felt like such a big moment in my mind.
The kids are ok-ish. E struggled at nap time. He's a total daddy's boy, so he's going through some extra separation anxiety. Daddy was here when he went to bed, and gone when he woke up. For a three year old, that's tough. A & D went to church with Grandma and spent time with sweet friends for a bit of the day. D was extra cuddly tonight. They've been here before. It's never been for this long, but they remember long periods of time without Dad. I'm praying that they're extra gracious with me, but I know that I'll have to exercise a good deal of grace their way. It's hard age to be apart from your Dad.
S is a spitfire. She's super cute, and doesn't really know what's going on. It will be a blessing and a curse for her. She's very jealous of poor Luna, so I'm having to constantly remind her to be nice and gentle ("Lord, beer me strength!"). She was super lovey with me as I put her to bed tonight. I'm grateful for her easy smile and silly demeanor. She helps keep things light around here (when she's not getting in trouble).
This is the worst part of the day. The kids are in bed, and it's "our" time. I miss sitting next to him and laughing at ridiculous movies or TV shows. I still text him funny memes I find throughout the day, so that helps a bit. I have to get used to the new normal for a while. I'll get there. It's just going to take time. I'm blessed to be married to a man who I miss so very much, so very quickly. I'm sitting in bed, watching Superstore (for the millionth time - he would be annoyed), and drinking water out of a cup from our Disney trip. Even when he's not here the things in our room make me think of him, and there's comfort in that.
Thank you to all of the people who texted or sent messages today. It meant the world to know that people were thinking about us, praying for us, and sending love our way. Thank you to my Mom for bringing over breakfast, watching the kids so I could get a bit of rest, and spending time with us today. Thank you to our sweet friends who picked up our bigs and took them to play with their kids for a bit - their time with your kids was the first entry in each of their gratitude journals. It meant as much to them as it did to me.
I promise, I will try not to let this blog become a sappy, woe-is-me-my-husband-is-gone kind of blog. It's going to be a big part of our lives for a long while, and I'm trying my best to be positive. Sometimes things are just tough. I'm not always great at sugar coating. A huge thank you to the people who stick with me through this. <3 nbsp="" p="">
The kids are ok-ish. E struggled at nap time. He's a total daddy's boy, so he's going through some extra separation anxiety. Daddy was here when he went to bed, and gone when he woke up. For a three year old, that's tough. A & D went to church with Grandma and spent time with sweet friends for a bit of the day. D was extra cuddly tonight. They've been here before. It's never been for this long, but they remember long periods of time without Dad. I'm praying that they're extra gracious with me, but I know that I'll have to exercise a good deal of grace their way. It's hard age to be apart from your Dad.
S is a spitfire. She's super cute, and doesn't really know what's going on. It will be a blessing and a curse for her. She's very jealous of poor Luna, so I'm having to constantly remind her to be nice and gentle ("Lord, beer me strength!"). She was super lovey with me as I put her to bed tonight. I'm grateful for her easy smile and silly demeanor. She helps keep things light around here (when she's not getting in trouble).
This is the worst part of the day. The kids are in bed, and it's "our" time. I miss sitting next to him and laughing at ridiculous movies or TV shows. I still text him funny memes I find throughout the day, so that helps a bit. I have to get used to the new normal for a while. I'll get there. It's just going to take time. I'm blessed to be married to a man who I miss so very much, so very quickly. I'm sitting in bed, watching Superstore (for the millionth time - he would be annoyed), and drinking water out of a cup from our Disney trip. Even when he's not here the things in our room make me think of him, and there's comfort in that.
Thank you to all of the people who texted or sent messages today. It meant the world to know that people were thinking about us, praying for us, and sending love our way. Thank you to my Mom for bringing over breakfast, watching the kids so I could get a bit of rest, and spending time with us today. Thank you to our sweet friends who picked up our bigs and took them to play with their kids for a bit - their time with your kids was the first entry in each of their gratitude journals. It meant as much to them as it did to me.
I promise, I will try not to let this blog become a sappy, woe-is-me-my-husband-is-gone kind of blog. It's going to be a big part of our lives for a long while, and I'm trying my best to be positive. Sometimes things are just tough. I'm not always great at sugar coating. A huge thank you to the people who stick with me through this. <3 nbsp="" p="">
