1. I’ll start with my easiest identifiers: I'm a Christian, wife, and mother of 4 children (and 2 children I never got to hold in my arms).
2. I'm deeply flawed. In spite of this, I am deeply loved by my friends and family. The by-product of this is being deeply blessed. This is a gift I try to repay by loving in every way I'm capable.
3. I have an amazing husband who sees me for who I am and loves me. He doesn't always understand me (nor I him), but he is patient and kind while I process things (sometimes slowly) emotionally and mentally. He is the smartest, funniest, and most capable person I know. We've been together for almost 15 years, and he's still my favorite person to be around. I don't think many people would have seen our relationship coming freshman year of college (we were/are SO very different in many ways), but I'm grateful for the way we were brought together.
4. I'm a mother to four of the smartest and quirkiest kids I know. They are also some of the most stubborn and frustrating kids I've ever met, but I'm so grateful that they're mine. Full disclosure: sometimes I have to repeat that last bit to myself because motherhood is hard. It's the most thankless job I've ever had, and I'm in the trenches of it now. I lose my patience and yell more often than I'm proud to admit, but I try to be quick to apologize. I try to be a good example to them of love, humility, and grace. Every once in a while I'm successful and sometime I am not. Thank God for grace.
5. I pray that my kids love me and look up to me the way I love and look up to my Mom. I'm sorry for any minor (or major) inconvenience I have ever caused her. She's a blessing to everyone around her. She's the best example, currently walking the earth, of who I want to be.
6. I'm (like everyone else) incredibly insecure. I fight guilt and a deep feeling of being "less than" those around me constantly. I spend too much time comparing myself to others. I know that "comparison is the thief of joy" but I think measuring ourselves next to others is a (super lame) part of human nature.
7. I'm an INFP: Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Perceptive. I used to say I/E, but I feel confident and comfortable enough in my introvertedness now to drop the /E. The sum of these traits basically means that I am a deep feeler. I'm an empath for better or worse.
8. In Enneagram terms, I'm a 2 (Helper) wing 3 (Achiever). After 2, my closest is 7 (Enthusiast). There's a lot to unpack here, but I'll save that for another blog. In case you can't tell, I really love psychology and the study of personalities.
9. I am a lover of all things creative. This often presents itself in my make-up, clothing, painting, writing, decorating, baking, cooking, and everything else. One of my favorite things to do is go to a place in Omaha called The Makery and create things. It's peaceful and I'm not making a mess in my own home.
10. I like to think of myself as an open book. I don't share everything on here, because so much of my story doesn't belong to just me. If we're talking in person, I will gladly tell you the real story of what's going on in my life if I feel that your interest is genuine and not superficial.
11. I often feel crippled by anxiety and depression. If it feels like I post a lot of selfies or pictures of my kids and me, it's because I need to remind myself that I'm putting one foot in front of the other. Antidepressants are a gift from God. I struggle to get out of bed without them.
12. I like to write my blog as if I'm having a conversation with you, the reader. I'm a big fan of parentheses. I'm sure you've noticed. It's my way to let you into my head and thought process a bit more.
13. I'm passionate about so many things that I have a very hard time focusing on any one thing. I've spent the last 13 years focusing most of that passion on my family. I don't regret that, but I do worry about how it might affect the future. Companies don't typically value over a decade of caring for a family, and I'm not sure I'm the type who could stand to stay home when all of my kids are in school/leave the nest. I feel like I have a lot to offer, but little marketable experience. It drives me crazy.
14. This blog is a great way for me to process things. I get stuck in my own head. Sometimes, it helps me to write it all out. Every once in a while I push publish and share it with the world. More often than not, I write a blog and leave it unpublished. I have the dozens of unpublished posts that either exist for me to look back on my thought process or are waiting for further inspiration.
15. No one asked for information about me. It probably seems silly to share it, but I think we all want to be seen for who we are (even the ugly stuff) and valued.
2. I'm deeply flawed. In spite of this, I am deeply loved by my friends and family. The by-product of this is being deeply blessed. This is a gift I try to repay by loving in every way I'm capable.
3. I have an amazing husband who sees me for who I am and loves me. He doesn't always understand me (nor I him), but he is patient and kind while I process things (sometimes slowly) emotionally and mentally. He is the smartest, funniest, and most capable person I know. We've been together for almost 15 years, and he's still my favorite person to be around. I don't think many people would have seen our relationship coming freshman year of college (we were/are SO very different in many ways), but I'm grateful for the way we were brought together.
4. I'm a mother to four of the smartest and quirkiest kids I know. They are also some of the most stubborn and frustrating kids I've ever met, but I'm so grateful that they're mine. Full disclosure: sometimes I have to repeat that last bit to myself because motherhood is hard. It's the most thankless job I've ever had, and I'm in the trenches of it now. I lose my patience and yell more often than I'm proud to admit, but I try to be quick to apologize. I try to be a good example to them of love, humility, and grace. Every once in a while I'm successful and sometime I am not. Thank God for grace.
5. I pray that my kids love me and look up to me the way I love and look up to my Mom. I'm sorry for any minor (or major) inconvenience I have ever caused her. She's a blessing to everyone around her. She's the best example, currently walking the earth, of who I want to be.
6. I'm (like everyone else) incredibly insecure. I fight guilt and a deep feeling of being "less than" those around me constantly. I spend too much time comparing myself to others. I know that "comparison is the thief of joy" but I think measuring ourselves next to others is a (super lame) part of human nature.
7. I'm an INFP: Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Perceptive. I used to say I/E, but I feel confident and comfortable enough in my introvertedness now to drop the /E. The sum of these traits basically means that I am a deep feeler. I'm an empath for better or worse.
8. In Enneagram terms, I'm a 2 (Helper) wing 3 (Achiever). After 2, my closest is 7 (Enthusiast). There's a lot to unpack here, but I'll save that for another blog. In case you can't tell, I really love psychology and the study of personalities.
9. I am a lover of all things creative. This often presents itself in my make-up, clothing, painting, writing, decorating, baking, cooking, and everything else. One of my favorite things to do is go to a place in Omaha called The Makery and create things. It's peaceful and I'm not making a mess in my own home.
10. I like to think of myself as an open book. I don't share everything on here, because so much of my story doesn't belong to just me. If we're talking in person, I will gladly tell you the real story of what's going on in my life if I feel that your interest is genuine and not superficial.
11. I often feel crippled by anxiety and depression. If it feels like I post a lot of selfies or pictures of my kids and me, it's because I need to remind myself that I'm putting one foot in front of the other. Antidepressants are a gift from God. I struggle to get out of bed without them.
12. I like to write my blog as if I'm having a conversation with you, the reader. I'm a big fan of parentheses. I'm sure you've noticed. It's my way to let you into my head and thought process a bit more.
13. I'm passionate about so many things that I have a very hard time focusing on any one thing. I've spent the last 13 years focusing most of that passion on my family. I don't regret that, but I do worry about how it might affect the future. Companies don't typically value over a decade of caring for a family, and I'm not sure I'm the type who could stand to stay home when all of my kids are in school/leave the nest. I feel like I have a lot to offer, but little marketable experience. It drives me crazy.
14. This blog is a great way for me to process things. I get stuck in my own head. Sometimes, it helps me to write it all out. Every once in a while I push publish and share it with the world. More often than not, I write a blog and leave it unpublished. I have the dozens of unpublished posts that either exist for me to look back on my thought process or are waiting for further inspiration.
15. No one asked for information about me. It probably seems silly to share it, but I think we all want to be seen for who we are (even the ugly stuff) and valued.
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